Okay, I'm looking at bathing suits online to get an idea of what I want this year. I want to get a two piece to sunbathe in. I haven't had a two piece that didn't cover my stomach since I was about 6 years old. Here's my thought process right now:


Oh that's a cute pattern... that color would wash me out, I'd look like a ghost... Ooo I really like that top-- THOSE ARE THE BOTTOMS?!? Hell no. Nuh uh. I'm not having my ass hang out, I have SOME self respect.

Just some... Damn I'm hungry... I shouldn't eat for a month if I want to fit into one of those.

Shut up, shut up, shut up, evil evil me, that's not far and you know it. Okay so you're not a stick. Big deal. Will doesn't care.

Ugh don't think about that, now you'll think about what he'd think if you were in one and oh wow that's cute. But I don't have the chest of a 7 year old little girl. If I did that would work, on me I'd look like I should be walking the streets in Minneapolis.

Oh for heaven's sake would you stop being so down on yourself?! It's really getting annoying.

And you're the voice in my head telling me to keep eating aren't you? Who's the evil one now huh?

Shuuuuut uppppp.... I'm not wearing it anywhere else but home, does it even matter?

You have neighbors everywhere now, you want to blind them?

Haha, god you are such a smartass, where did you get that from?

.......

Dad.

Okay, so anyway, what color.... Blue... I look good in blue... or pink... red would make me look huge and pale... Nothing really pale, that'll wash me out too... Nothing really dark it'll just emphasize how pale I am...

Oh that's cute... tie sides on the bottom, nevermind then, my hips would die in that... That's nice, I like the color, the cut...

And it's a one piece you want to stay AWAY from that, you don't need one to cover you up, you already have one, this is for SUN BATHING. Just get a string bikini and tell the world to--

NO, no, no.... Ugh... that would look disgusting on me.

Why are you doing this again?

I have no idea... I'm crazy... it's for sun, just for sunbathing... Hell, I'm not even BUYING one this way. If I did, my butt would be hanging out, my boobs would be flattened out, it'd dig into my hips and choke my thighs, and I wouldn't be able to breath lol Why is that so funny to me? lol

Because you haven't eaten today and your brain is running on empty.

Oh, yeah, that...


A look into my brain while bathing suit shopping. Don't you feel so specia-- disturbed now? lol

And yes, I talk/argue with myself like that a lot. I toss it up to being an only child. Or schizophrenia.