Of Worms and Men

I was reading a post today on Castle on Reynard Lane, and it made me think too much lol She wrote about a worm. And surprisingly, it was really interesting. It made me think a lot about God. Weird, I know, but true. I wondered if we sometimes are like that. There's God, watching us above, hoping for our safety. We make a wrong turn, He tries to give us direction and we turn Him out. Unwilling to give up our control over life. Feeling vulnerable, alone, out of our element. But God still tries to direct us. Show us the way back to a safe path. Amazing to me how a worm can give me such complicated thoughts lol

Music

And I can't help it. I'm sorry. But I HAVE to have music on here! It's such a vital part of who I am! Not having my beloved music on a website that represents who I am, is like Van Gogh without paint! It's just not right!

On a related note, anyone know where a good cheap (or free lol) audio converter could be downloaded? I have tons of songs, but they're all wma files, and I must use mp3 files for music here. Since it's simple to do it that way. And I need simple lol


Explaining Will


My grandma especially is against that relationship I have, which is odd since she isn't a very typical grandmother lol But the predjudices run about the same. Will's a Democrat (most of my family is Republican), he's born and raised in NYC (a lot of my family still believes that NYers are true to stereotypes), he's an only child raised by his father (really have no idea why it's a problem lol), he's for the most part agnostic even though he's leaning towards Christianity (most of my family is Christian even if they aren't "hardcore"), and he's studying Finance and Political Science courses in college.

Okay, lemme get this straight, the person I'm really talking about here is my grandma. And she hates pretty much everything. And my older cousin, who frankly is about as mature and wise as gnat. I love her, but she's not bright.

I pretty much picked my EXACT opposite on all those things lol But that's what I LOVE. I love having someone that argues with me, that gives me a challenge when I present my views. I love the fact that he's always making me think. And even though all of those things are so very different between us, our personalities are very much alike. We're both rather quiet, kind of bookworm nerdy, both want family, both very focused on making sure our finances are in order (both our families have had REALLY bad debt), both of us have a strong desire to be in a monogamous relationship, and both of us have waited a long time to even DATE someone simply because we didn't find the one we wanted to risk our hearts on.

My family doesn't understand this. I like to be friends with anyone before I consider dating them. To me dating is a serious thing, and I know most people don't see it that way and think I'm crazy for thinking so lol But to me dating is saying you're considering the fact you could have a future with this person. And I really haven't met anyone that I felt that way about, and they felt that way about me. So I waited. And then (without meaning to really, we stumbled over each other lol) I met Will. And he was everything I ever wanted, but didn't know I wanted.

I didn't realize until I met him that I'd be going after the wrong type. I went after people purely for the way they looked. They were all eyes and smiles and tall and whatever else I found attractive-- with the personality of plywood. So that's how it happened. I met a guy who's face I couldn't see, and couldn't judge him on that. I fell in love with WHO he was, rather than WHAT he was.


This Entry Isn't Mixed Up Enough Yet?


The neighbor's dog is bugging me. She's a Siberian Husky. She howls. Frequently. They leave her alone. Outside. All day. She's sweet, but loud. And when they aren't there to shut her up, she will no stop barking. Ever.

Went to the Wild game against the Oilers. Lots of fun toward the end, but I was kinda upset with the Wild. They didn't play that well. We did win, but maybe we'll do better next year...

Mom got me Train's new CD. "For Me It's You," the song Cab is on it. I love that song. Soon as I get an audio converter it's going on here lol

Biscuit did wonderful with his tricks today. (My dog, for those of you that don't know.) He sat up really well on his hind legs. He has a hard time with it since he's top heavy lol That's what you get for having a mutt. But he's learning how to balance out his weight. He'll do better.

Need to watch "Proof," mom rented it a few days ago. Need to return them so we can get three more. (Online rentals, have to say that it's pretty nice.)

Besides that, I've been reading a lot lately. I haven't really read a book in a while. Which is really odd for me. But I've enjoyed it so much. Forgot how much I liked getting lost in stories. Maybe I'll start to work on my own again lol

Oh and by the way, I did Saturday Six and a quiz I got from a private blog of a friend on Facts of Dreaming. So go check it out! With that said I think I'll go read lol