"I'm not threatened by every pair of legs you watch go by
I don't cringe when you stare at women it's just a thing called guy
I don't notice your sideways glances or where your loyalty lies
I'm secure and out of me it's hard to get a rise..."

I find it strange that I'm not in the least bit threatened by Will finding other women attractive. I don't mind him looking at other women. (And I mean looking in ANY way.) I KNOW that this is weird. Okay, it's not weird, it's crazy. But it doesn't bother me. I don't feel threatened. I'm okay with it. I don't even get the smallest cringe of jealousy when it happens. WHY am I like this? Am I simple THAT secure in my place in our relationship? Am I just NAIVE? Is this a bad thing? Or is a sign of just how healthy my self esteem really is? How healthy our relationship is?

I think that I just except that, you know, there are plenty of women out there that are beautiful. And some women are... um... blessed in certain ways so much so you can't help but look lol Whether you're male or female. I mean, Will knows I think there are very attractive men out there. I say so. But I think (I HOPE) he knows that all it is for me is admiring something beautiful. It's not that I don't want to be with him, and so I suppose I assume that he looks because it's an attractive woman, not because I'm "less than" or not meeting his standards.

Of course, there's a BIG difference between "looking" and LOOKING. Even I know that. And when it does cross that line (hasn't yet) I know my jealousy meter will skyrocket. THAT will get under my skin. But in general... I'm not bothered by it. Not in the least.

Is this really healthy? Or am I completely warped?

"I'm not needy
I don't cling much
I am not scared
I'm not afraid as such
I'm not dependent
Rock solid stays in touch
Doth I protest too much?"

(Alanis Morissette, Doth I Protest Too Much)