Reading through some of my AOL journals. (Yes, I'm still reading, and no you aren't allowed to say anything along the lines of "you traitor" because I'm really not going to be that way. These people are my friends and what they choose they choose, even if I don't agree. Enough said. Subject dropped.) And I'm seeing all of this hate between the "ones that stayed" and "the ones that left" and it upsets me. How could this turn people on each other? I mean, honestly, does respecting another's choice no longer matter? That's all it was. A personal choice. ::sigh:: I just hope everyone stops being bitter soon. Reading the comments make it feel like some kind of civil war. Just silly to me.

Anyway, enough about AOL, for heaven's sake, we've talked about that more than enough ON AOL I'm not about to start here.

We'll be having thanksgiving at home this year. Me, mom, dad and my grandma. Makes me sad to be honest. I love the family get togethers. I love seeing everyone in one place, having dinner together. (Even if the food generally SUCKS lol I mean, what is it with Minnesotans and casseroles and "hot plates"? lol I'm such a Texan sometimes.)

Also more than kinda sad about my birthday. It's in a few days and I have NO plans. It's my 18th birthday. Something I've been looking forward to forever. And I'm not doing A THING! That just plain SUCKS. But I don't want to say anything to my parents. Is that wrong? I just don't want to worry them more than they already are. They're so stressed out over our business and money.... Doesn't seem fair to me to make this into an issue. But then again, how many times do you turn eighteen? And if it's something I'm looking forward to, like I have been, shouldn't I be able to do something? Anything? ::sigh:: I don't know what to do. Open to suggestions.

Right now I'm just tired. Dad got tickets to the midnight opening show of Harry Potter. Opening show. Midnight. I had to be up early. The opening show. I had work the next day. AT MIDNIGHT. It was the opening show. Did I mention it was at MIDNIGHT?!?! Ugh... Didn't get home until 3am and I didn't get to sleep until 5-5:30, but that was my fault.

I woke up with dark circles under my eyes and my body aches all over. I have a pillow in the office here. Ugh, where's a hot tub when you need it?

But the movie was honestly, really really good. And I wasn't a big fan of the movies. Honestly I wasn't. I didn't really like the first two, I liked the third, but this one, I could probably see again today. It was really good. Of course, it probably was to me because it was an older storyline. I mean, it's rated PG-13, do you really think a 5 yr old is going to see that? I hope parents keep the rating in mind, this movie isn't for little kids. I mean, I jumped more than once in the movie.

I wonder what's going to happen. I love the books. Honestly I do. Here's some background for you:

I didn't start reading until I was thirteen. I don't mean reading as in "See Spot Run" so don't look at me like that lol I mean reading as in sitting down and reading a novel. Up until I was 13 I flipped through magazines. That's about it. But my uncle bought me Harry Potter. I started reading it. Then I read the other two books, since three were out at the time. That's when I started to read, so yes I have a certain affection for them. Understandably so since that's what introduced me to the thing I simply can't get enough of. (No Will they didn't introduce me to you lol But I can't get enough of you anyway honey, lol)

Let's see what else, what else...

Oh my mom highlighted my hair! Woo hoo! lol (Thank you Maria for cleaning up my picture!........Again! lol I SO do not look that good today lol)

Besides that, mom and I have to go Christmas shopping as Sears soon. Tomorrow maybe. She got a "Sears Card" (aka "way they make sure you shop at their store" card) so it'll be easier to pay for everything. Ah. Don't ya'll love when money gets tight? I know. Just puts a new life into everything! ::rolls eyes:: Sarcasm, people. That was sarcasm.

Does everyone know about our trailer? Okay well we had a travel trailer from being on the carnival, sold it when we got off the road, idiot never paid us, dad went and got it, now we have a travel trailer we're trying to sell. Dad thinks he's sold it to a guy named Phil, and now, it's wait and see. I hope I don't have to wait too long. The stress is killing me. I'm stressed because that money is going to insurance bills, and getting mom's shoulder looked at, because it's starting to "freeze up" on her, and (my very selfish reason) it's also what's paying for the trip for me to go see my baby. (If you don't get that I mean Will, where have you been? lol) So yeah, tense, but I will survive! Somehow... lol

Okay I THINK I've made up for lack of new entries. Much love and miss everyone!