If you read my last entry you know I haven't been in a good mood. In fact I'm dissapointed in myself for not writing when I'm upbeat. But I'm back to my normal self now so I hope you won't be too upset with my outburst last week. I should not have left the week off on that note.

But today oh glorious day! It's supposed to get to 83 degrees today. I'm happy and not so happy about that. I'm happy that warm temperatures are here. I'm sad at the prospect of another hot summer. Last summer was terrible. It barely rained at all.

I've been planning my trip to go see my family in Tulsa this July. I think we'll end up Spending the 4th with my Aunt Kathy and Uncle Richard. I'm wish Daddy was going to be there with us... this will be the first time I've spent the fourth without him... but he has to stay and take care of business and the dog.

Then we're going to go and spend a day with my Aunt Donna and her husband, Gene B. I hope my cousin Ryan will be there. I don't know when he leaves for Alaska. And I hope we'll get to see my Uncle Gene P and his new wife. My aunt was married to Uncle Gene P. first then married Gene B. But anywho....

I haven't seen Ryan since I was 11 years old, or close to that. I miss him alot. He was my favorite cousin. I know I say I don't play favorites but I do. ; )

Kylie, my younger cousin, I'm not really looking forward to seeing. She is so selfish. I hate talking to her. Plus, even though she is the biggest brat, the family thinks she's so special. Jealous you ask? Yes I am. I can admit to it. She was always the star of the family. N o matter what I did, she did it better. At least in their eyes. And you know what's funny? I think she's just as jealous of me. Now isn't that strange?

We used to be so close growing up. We had matching jewelry and teddy bears and everything. Then she got to be about ten and everything change so dramaticly. Her parents had gotten divorced, her mother had remarried, she had gotten thrown in with two more boys, both older. I guess I understand why things changed. But I still lovedher. And I hadn't expected things to change like they had. Plus I had been a carni. Carnis were foul terrible people and you couldn't be associated with them. I mean think of what it could do to your social status! :::dramatic gasp::: Yeah, whatever.... She was wierd. She is wierd! But I still love her. She's my cousin. The one a comforted when we were little. The one who at one point in time, wanted to be just like me. She was like my sister, but not anymore.

Can you tell I have alot of issuses concerning her?

But I am happy. I talked to my friend Christy yesterday. She's had just gotten back from rehearsal. She's staring in a low budget film. I'm excited for her. She's such a drama queen anyway... JK Christy, JK! Your not that dramatic! I wonder if she even reads this... hmm. I'll have to ask her sometime.

Then I talked to Melissa. She's got no time to breathe! I swear I can't believe how much she does! First off she's the pastor's daughter so she's got church four times (two services on wed, and two on sun), and then she's a senior this year, so she graduates in a month, and then she has trips to Israel and to visit her sister, then she has to go and visit her campus take the tour blah blah blah, and then she has like four other trips this summer, and she starts college this fall. And I probably won't see her till Christmas.

So now that you are all refreshed....

I hope you all have a wonderful day, and I swear I'm going to try and stay upbeat from now on! Hugs! : )