Well, I've been shopping online for swinsuits (yuk!) but I found some really nice ones. I love this one from Jantzen http://www.jantzenswim.com/female/jantzen/dt_paisley.htm I is sooo cute! I haven't had a two-peice in years. I guess it's time to step out from little attic room, and let the world see me. LOL!

I'm not usually comfortable in swimsuits. Maybe that comes from being called fatty when I was little. Isn't that funny, I went from a skinny minny to fatty in one winter.

It wasn't like I could controll it though. It was the steroids. I had severe asthma and them put me on it to "help with the situation." Right. All it did was make me gain a ton of weight, ruin my self image, and make me even more insecure in social situations. I love doctors.

My mom took me off. And the attacks got better. Then they started to become less frequent. Then one day, they stopped. I haven't had an attack since I was nine.

Anyway.. getting over that bitterness is going to take a long time. I still feel uncomfortable when a wear a dress or close fitting blouse. I still hate my legs. But It's getting better. Everything gets better. Because at some point, it really can't get any worse. Of course that's always the point when you're just waiting for the anvil to hit you square in the head. The night is always darkest before the dawn. Who said that? I'll have to find out.... : )