Wow... No idea where to start... Seems like life just blew up on me. Kind of hate times like this, where everything decides to hit me at once.

My parents have moved the showroom. Now it's time to start the build outs (doing the walls, counters, installing the fireplaces, etc) and trying our best to get publicity and make ourselves known. It's going to be really hard for the next six months, because there will be practically no income. Just enough to pay bills and put food on the table. It's going to be hard, but we've been so broke that putting food on the table was a lucky break. So this'll be rather easy in comparison.

To top that my grandma was diagnosed with diabetes. And she's now become a thorn in my mother's side because now she knows EVERYTHING about diabetes. So my normally know it all grandmother has more ammo for mom. I feel bad for mom because I know it drives her crazy.

Helen's in Chicago again, so it's hard having her gone too. I don't have anyone right here to talk to now. She's my best friend here.

Will's so swamped with work I barely ever talk to him and when I do it's only for a few minutes. It's incredibly hard not having him to talk to. He's like my other half, whatever thoughts I have go straight to him, all my problems are divided with him, all my hopes go through him for support. Not having that, it's like missing an arm. I feel this gap inside me, like I've been ripped in half. I'm trying really hard to not let him know how much it hurts me, but I think I'm doing a really bad job. I know I've made him feel guilty and that upsets me. I know it's not his fault, I mean, I pushed for him to take this job. They're long hard hours, and I'm proud of him for it. I am. Just... miss him so much...

I'm also starting my own online business, which is taking a lot out of me, planning, looking up loans, etc... It's a lot of work. Hopefully I'll have it running by the end of the year.

Besides that, I slept bad last night and so I think I'll wrap it up here.

Love to everyone, hope you all are having a great day.